I had writer's block - by choice or by prescription, I don't know - and I needed something to get me back into writing. 30 days and nights that would make my eyes red and watery, my fingers sore from typing, and send my brain into an insane state of worlds and characters seemed like the perfect event to restart my writing career.
And Nano sounded like so much fun. I had known about it for years, and I had followed people who had done it. It was definitely on my do-before-death list.
As I sat in our uncomfortable computer chair, mentally flip-flopping the issue, I tried to figure out why I shouldn't do Nanowrimo.
1. I'm scared I can't win.
2. My school may suffer. (This may not seem like a serious reason to some, but I am very serious about my grades.)
3. I'm scared I will write a huge mess that will be beyond repair.
4. My whole November would be committed to writing a novel, potentially not leaving time for anything else.
5. I'm scared to take the leap.
As I looked over this list, a favorite quote came to mind: "Do what you are afraid to do." - Ralph Waldo Emerson.
I've had countless other chances to obey the above quote, and here was another chance that had tumbled into my lap.
I took the leap.
Creating my Nano account and starting to outline my story did not abolish all my apprehension completely. But I have added a great deal of excitement and anticipation to my apprehension.
It's gonna be an adventure.
Here are my goals for Nanowrimo:
1. Complete the month with a 50,000 word novel (no matter how legalistic Sarah says it is. Haha. That was a joke, Sarah.)
2. Dive so completely into my novel that I believe my hands are flying over the controls of a steamwalker instead of my keyboard. I want to live and breathe my story while I'm writing, not stopping to worry if I chose a strong enough verb or formulated my sentence just right.
3. Come out with good grades and have time to ride my horse and be outside, enjoying my favorite season, which doesn't last long.